I can’t shake this sick feeling…
I feel so immature asking God for things to go back to normal. I know that’s not how life works. Why make someone suffer though? How the fuck do i find strength for her? The only time i feel strong is when she isn’t suffering… I always feel so weak now. Its the most mentally exhausting situation I’ve been in.
I can’t hear her cry. It makes my entire body weak… She’s the only thing on my mind, nothing else matters. For the first time in my life NOTHING else matters. Literally fucking nothing. Nothing nothing nothing except her. I have no space in my mind for anyone or anything except her. Shes the only reason im here, how does anyone deal with this? how do i deal with this?
Just smile…………………………….? im fucking exhausted.